it has been a long time people!! :D

hey hey you you!!

it has been 6 months that i havent opened this blog,, suddenly today i just remembered about it and take a look of it,,
i miss my blogg!!
where i can post all sort of things that happened in my life!! (of course not all!! secret things need to be in the secret place!! :D)

anyway,life has been good so far,, can wait to finish this quarter and enjoy the winter breakkk!!

also, cant wait to graduate!! :) but, i need a J-O-B people!! omg,,
time really goes so fastt,,still remember my freshman year here when things are not so complicated,, uuuu,, misses that moment !! give it back to me!! :(

oh well, if you want to ask me what im gonna do after graduation,, the answer is : HAVE NO IDEA!!
HAHAHHA
well, of course im trying to find a jobb first here,, i want to get the experience!!
after that finally go back home to indonesia!! missed a lot of moments with my fams of course, but i dont want to miss more than that,,

ok then people, its 1:50 AM in the morning,, and im going off to bed,,

hug n kisses,,

riza

complicated really

hemm, it is really getting complicated right now,,
things have changed quite fast,,
one day you become best friends and one day you dont know each other.
its kind of hard to see things beyond the line,but i have tried,,
and i think i am failed,,

i dont know what to do anymore,,
should i just give up or i need to keep trying even though its hard??
i wanted things to be like the time when we know each other,
when we can just hang out and gossiping or maybe just singing like crazy,,
anything but this,,

i dont want to get out of your life for sure
but i dont see that you are trying for that.
are you trying also or maybe just me?

hope things is going to be better than now,,
coz i dont want to let u go

my wishess

i wish i can make a very pretty cake
i wish i am in Paris rite now
i wish i have a bluberry muffin or banana nut muffin also works for me
i wish i can see the fireworks one more time
i wish i can speak chinese and spanish
i wish i am in hospitality major
i wish i dont need to use glasses or contact lenses to see the world
i wish i can be bird and fly through the window
i wish i can take a bubble bath tmrrow morning
i wish i can forget all the things
i wish i can forgive
and importantly,
i wish, i dont know you from the beginning,,

21 bday

haduh2

maap skali yah klo blog yg sbelum nya agag2 blak blak an pmbicaraanny,,
lg stress sh sdikit
hehehehe

yh, mau crita sdikit aja ttg bday 21 gw ini
obviously, gag akan trlupkan,,
dulu, gw gag tau apa sh bedanya ultah umur 18 kek, 19 kek, 20 kek, kayaknya semua nya sama aja gt,,hehehemm
tp, u are in US baby, 21 means being legal,
so, u will be 21 once and please enjoy the nite!!

well, ultah gw yg ke 21 ini, dimulai dari surprise an dari temen2 gw,,
gw udah agag2 tau sh klo mis nya temen2 gw bakal dtg,,tp yah, ttp surprise juga,,krn mereka dtg nya skitar jem 12 30 ato jem 1 pagii,, padahal udh mau tdr lg gw!!
hehehe

after that, lanjut dengan acara makan2 di BUCCA DI BEPPO,,
haduh tmptnya sempit abis,,gag nyaman,, jd nyesel loh gw makan2 dsitu,,
tp maybe org nya juga trlalu banyak,,bingung dehhh :(

lanjut dr makan, pergilah kita semua ke bristol and sugar,,
langsung alcohol intake nya high skali,, mabok, muntah, gag enak perut, hangover paginya, dll,,,
haduh, laen kalo kalo mw mabok, jgn ampe muntah dehh!!gag enak,,

trnyata, bgini toh jadinya umur 21,, spektakuler n bikin cape,,

other than masalah duniawi,,
ada juga donk sisi2 dimana gw mnyadari umur 21 ini umur pijakan gw yg baru untuk membuka lembaran yang baru,,
semua2 yang buruk, ditaruh di paling blakang halaman, disegel *or di wrap* supaya gag bisa di buka lagi, dan bukalah lembaran halaman yang baru, wangi, bersih and gag bercoreng sdikit pun,

semua ucapan happy bday yang gw trima baik lewat sms, tilpun, facebook, kartu ucapan n kehadiran, membuat gw sadar trnyata masih banyak pihak yang care and peduli sama gw,,

other than that, usaha temen2 n keluarga gw untuk ngasih gw kado,,
gw tau ngasih n cari kado ke orang tuh gag gampang,,
mesti ngumpulin orang2 yg mau patunga, belom lagi, cari kado yang cocok untuk tuh orang, telpun2 sana sini, itung2 uang, sms, maybe FB an, ngobrol,,
haduh, usaha2 kecil yg kayk gt yang bikin ultah gw lebih brwarna,,
belum lagi kue ultah yang dibikinin lia,,
yummyy,,
gw tau bikin tuh kue gag gampang,, dimana elo harus mulai dari scratch,,coba2 dulu pertama kali,trus bagi2 ke orang.gagal.bikin lagi yang baru, brhrap lebih enak dari sebelumnya n nyatanya, seriously, it tasted really good!!

semua perhatian yang dikasih buat gw smakin mbuat gw sadar kalo gw gag sndirian ampe skr!!
maybe gw lagi down ato sedih kmren2 ini, cuman, semua jg ada masa nya,,
roda kan pasti berputar,, kadang elo ada di atas, kadang elo ada di bwh,,
tp dengan beranjak nya umur gw ke 21 ini, gw udah mulai bisa mengatasi semua nya dengan legowo. lebih menerima apa ada nya.
lebih mau enjoy my life dengan mengesampingkan hal2 yg buruk ke bagian paling blakang kepala gw.

so, rite now, i just want to enjoy my life.
smiling whenever i can
value friendship and family
and of course dont care with anything or anybody else!!

xoxo,

cheers for being 21!!!

pain killer please,,

this pain is killing me seriously,,

i need someone to give me the pain killer,,
but, i dont think anybody has that kind of pain killer for me..

when I just want to give up,why you always makes me dont want to give up?
but, when i finally started to respond it, then u just will let me alone without a sound,

its hard for me, u should know,,
how u get over it so easy??

i wish i know it, so i can get over it so easy,,

maybe u are not worth it anymore,
i have no idea,
what should i do?

i need my pain killer please,,

desperately,,

life is seriously too short

life's too short

life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
so love the people who treat u right, forget about the ones who don't.
and believe that everything happens for a reason.

if u get a chance, take it.
if it changes ur life, let it.
nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised,
it would be worth it..

taken from my friend's notes on FB,,

journey to 2009

hellow yellow,

fiuh, udah lama juga gag update blog gw yg super lama ini,,
hehehhee,,

well, gara2 wktu itu tanpa ada angin dll, law comment ini blog trakhir gw yg isinya ttg bestfriend,,
jd teringat lah gw akan blog yg udh lama gag gw buka ini *almost forget user name n passwordnya*

oh well,
dengan meninggalkan tahun 2008 yang penuh dengan kenangan manis,
dimulai lah tahun 2009 yang supposedly tahun yg bagus,, *since itu angka 9 diblakangnya,angka kbruntungan gw smnjak SMP*, oh well, trnyata tdk sbagus yg gw pikirkann,,

banyak skali kjadian yg mbuat gw kecewa dan sedih padahal baru awal tahunn,,

yah, skr ini, 2 minggu mnuju ultah gw yg ke 21,,
gw cuman brharap aja,, smoga dgn umur gw yg brtmbah nanti,
-gw bisa smakin kuat
-makin bisa dewasa
-makin bs "legowo"
-n of course, everything happens for a reason, rite??

ok deh klo bgtu,

hope u guys enjoy this short part of my life,,
hopefully i can continue this journey to be in a better path than these dayss,,

xoxo,,

riza